Welcome 2018. And as for the annus horribilis that was 2017, well, I’m perfectly happy to see the back of it.
Honestly, it was just awful, despite a pleasant start with family. This year we’ve had one of the girls involved in a shockingly severe accident on her scooter, I have reportedly fought the mumps (that’s Halifax for ya) and possibly mono in the fall. I also spent half the year in depression which was not quite properly treated,which culminated in my firing one month before Christmas. Yay.
Of course I may well be better off not working for Ping anymore. I never quite fit in there the way I did at Actional, where I spent 8 years before being laid off. Then again that layoff did leave me rather more bitter than before. It certainly left me feeling that I can’t trust employers at all. The phrase “human resources” says it all – as an employee you’re a resource to te company, alongside capital, real estate, computers and office furniture. You are no more than that. Companies realize the negative connotation of the name and sometimes call it something else like “people operations”, but there’s no real difference. I can call myself Sebastian Vettel all I want, that’s not going to make me a four-time F1 world champion.
Perhaps my error has been in seeking salaried work when I should rather try to develop my own ideas. And so I find still a little optimism going into the new year. Maybe I can find my real calling this year. We will see.